When Elizabeth Edwards learned of the affair her husband John was conducting with filmmaker Rielle Hunter, she says she was sickened. "I cried and screamed, I went to the bathroom and threw up," she writes in her upcoming book, Resilience. The Daily News obtained a copy of the tome, which comes out May 12 from Broadway Books. Edwards stood by her husband publicly despite these feelings, but contrary to previously published rumors, she says she urged him to step out of the race for the presidency in 2007. "He should not have run," she wrote, thinking back to the many staffers and supporters who later felt betrayed and deceived by the revelation.
Elsewhere in the book, Edwards explains how her candidate husband originally lied to her about the depth of the affair (he originally said it was just one time), and how the "pathetic" Hunter hit on him with cheesy lines like: "You are so hot." But though Edwards says she hasn't yet fully come to terms with her husband's straying, part of the point of the book is the power of forgiveness. "I lie in bed, circles under my eyes, my sparse hair sticking in too many directions, and he looks at me as if I am the most beautiful woman he has ever seen," she writes. "It matters."